Pure Beauty!

"My heart is steadfast, O God; I will sing and make music with all my soul. Awake, harp and lyre! Iwill awaken the dawn. I will praise you, O LORD, among the nations; I will sing of you among the peoples. For great is your love, higher than the heavens; your faithfulness reaches to the skies. Be exalted, O God, above the heavens, and let your glory be over all the earth." Psalm 108

First and Hopefully the Last

Last night Lyndsay went to the hospital because she was still vomiting and they admitted her. I have been talking with her through out the day and she is doing "better". She will be eating soon and this will be the test. If she doesn't vomit she will go home tonight or tomorrow (hopefully) and if she does vomit... who knows. Just pray for her PLEASE that she will be able to keep down food and go home to her family.

So, I ended up going to the hospital to see her and she looked and felt so much better. She ate before I got there and there was talk going around of her going home. About 30 to 45 minutes the doctor came in her room to release her. YAY! She signed a piece of paper and off she went. Praise the LORD!

I believe she is home now resting in her nice comfortable bed.

Check back soon because I will be posting new photos of her without hair. ;o)

He is in Control

Hello friends. I want to give y'all an update and ask you to pray for Lyndsay. Lyndsay had her 2nd round of chemo on Monday and I think this time she was given more, so it was harder on her body. Before she was givien her chemo they tested her bood count and they almost didn't give her her medicine because her blood count was low, but they went ahead and gave it to her.

Since Monday she hasn't been able to hold down anything and has been vomiting. Today she went to her doctor's office to get IV fluids and antibiotics. She was there from 9 to 5 and when she called me she still wasn't feeling well. The doctor told her if she continues to vomit that she will need to go to the hospital. She had a feel she was going to be going, but was waiting to see if the vomiting would stop. I talked with her a little while ago and it looks like she is going to try to go to the hospital tonight.

Please pray for healing. Pray the Lord will overwhelm her while she feels horrible. Pray for Ben as he stands by her side and watches and knows there is nothing he can do. Pray the Lord would put Lyndsay in the hands of a good doctor. Pray for wisdom and knowledge for that doctor. Pray for his will to be done and peace would fall upon all.

Hold My Heart

How long must I pray
Must I pray to You?
How long must I wait
Must I wait for You?
How long till I see Your face
See You shining through
I'm on my knees
Begging You to notice me I'm on my knees
Father, will you turn to me

One tear in the driving rain
One voice in a sea of pain
Could the maker of the stars
Hear the sound of my breaking heart
One life, that's all I am
Right now I can barely stand
If You're everything You say You are
Would You come close and hold my heart

I've been so afraid, afraid to close my eyes
So much can slip away before I say goodbye
But if there's no other way
I'm done asking why I'm on my knees
Begging You to turn to me
I'm on my knees Father, will you run to me
So many questions without answers
Your promises remain
I can't see but I'll take my chances
To hear You call my name
To hear You call my name

Loving like He Loves

I don't think we will ever completely understand true love until we are brought before our Father in heaven, but we are called to “Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another." and "be of one mind, live in peace. And the God of love and peace will be with you.". I think when we see our Father we will be instantly hit with this love and we will greive of the times we were not so loving. I know sometimes it is hard to be loving towards others or even love one another, but we are called to do so no matter what... "To love him with all your heart, with all your understanding and with all your strength, and to love your neighbor as yourself is more important than all burnt offerings and sacrifices.” I think the only way we as sinners can love is through our faith and love of our Father above "Love and faithfulness meet together; righteousness and peace kiss each other."

Lyndsay is greiving over a few things that she was told by doctors she would not be able to do or make happen after her chemo treatment, but truthfully this is in God's hands and Lyndsay knows this. But, it hurts when you still have desires in your heart and then they are instantly shattered by words. But, as she is greiving she is not letting it take over her life. She is pushing on and continuing with life. Lyndsay was having a reaction to one of the medicines she was given and she had no idea it was a reaction. All she knew was that her body hurt, she couldn't get comfortable, and that she was SO tired. Thankfully she called the doctor this weekend and informed them on how she was feeling and they told her that this was not normal and they called in a perscription for her to help with her symptoms. Praise the Lord!! She is feeling so much better and she sounded so much more like herself today.

I am praying hearts can be mended and words can be softened as we all go through this with Lyndsay. I pray we take hold of life and love like we were called to love. I pray for Lyndsay as her heart is greiving, but I pray the Lord will reaffirm to her this is not the end and that He has got this.

 

The Beginning of Discomfort

Yesterday Lyndsay went to her doctor's office and had to get a shot to stimulate her bone marrow and they warned her about the discomfort she may feel in the days to follow. I spoke to her a little while ago and she is so uncomfortable and achy. She can't sit or lay to get comfortable. Her bones hurt! Pray for her comfort. Ask the Lord to remove this discomfort and make this time bearable for her. I know Lyndsay appreciates your prayers more than you will ever know.

A Glimmer of Light

I spoke with Lyndsay this morning and she is feeling okay. She didn't really have any side effects from the chemo she had yesterday... except for some hallucinations and some throwing up. I didn't think that was to bad... what do you think? This was one of the things I was praying for yesterday when she was having her chemo... that the LORD would protect her and stengthen her during this time. What a MIGHTY God he is!

She hadn't heard any results from any of the tests she has had done, but yesterday she was given a glimmer of light into all she is going through. Praise Jehovah-Rapha, Lyndsay does not have cancer in her bone marrow!! Huge Huge Huge... what a mighty Healer and Protector!!! She also, was given a more definate stage... she has Hodgkin's Lymphoma 2B. She was telling me they rate 2B and 3 as the same, but praise be to God!! I like hearing and seeing a 2 rather than a 3. LOL! It's a mental thing I guess. :o) But, this does not make it less aggressive. Her type of Lymphoma and stage it is at is very aggressive and will be treated very aggressive.

Lyndsay isn't feeling very well today, so please contiue to pray. Pray that the side effects to having the chemo won't be bad... pray she will be able to continue through everyday life. Pray that her Creator and Lover of her soul will heal her sickness and pray His will for her life will be come ours.

"I will exalt you, LORD,
   for you lifted me out of the depths
   and did not let my enemies gloat over me.
LORD my God, I called to you for help,
   and you healed me.
You, LORD, brought me up from the realm of the dead;
   you spared me from going down to the pit.
Sing the praises of the LORD, you his faithful people;
   praise his holy name.
For his anger lasts only a moment,
   but his favor lasts a lifetime;
weeping may stay for the night,
   but rejoicing comes in the morning.
When I felt secure, I said,
   “I will never be shaken.”
LORD, when you favored me,
   you made my royal mountain^[c] stand firm;
but when you hid your face,
   I was dismayed.
To you, LORD, I called;
   to the Lord I cried for mercy:
“What is gained if I am silenced,
   if I go down to the pit?
Will the dust praise you?
   Will it proclaim your faithfulness?
Hear, LORD, and be merciful to me;
   LORD, be my help.”
You turned my wailing into dancing;
   you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy,
that my heart may sing your praises and not be silent.
   LORD my God, I will praise you forever." Psalm 30 

Day 1 of Chemo

Today is Day 1 of chemo for Lyndsay, who is fighting Hodgkin's Lymphoma. There is a lot of worry in the unknown, but she has faith in God's will and she is going to fight this with everything she has. She will be receiving her cancer fighting medicine for 2 to 4 hours today. After receiving the chemo she will probably be really tired today, but the next few days she will probably be feeling sick from it all.

Keep Lyndsay in your prayers today. Ask the Lord to give her strength and endurance through this time of fighting. Ask the Lord for peace as this is now becoming "real". "Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." Philippians 4:6. Pray for the will of God, because really he is the Maker and Creator of it all. Praise the LORD because Lyndsay is fearfully and wonderfully made; for His works are wonderful, I know that full well!